The Moon is Pretty Tonight.

Salam..

It's not that i want to turn my blog into some love blog. it's just that, i have a weird feeling about some guys. Guys? no, it's not want you think. the real person is one, and he is taken. I don't know that at first, but i'm glad i found out. No, i didn't do anything. i don't send him candies or anything sweet. Didn't i mention in the post before how i forgot to love a boy?so i just keep quiet, thinking to myself that the feeling was not true. my heart just messing around.

But as the time passed, we get to be more awkward. While my friends could chat, talk comfortably, with him, I did not. it's just awkward. we met but i pretend to look away, ignoring him. or pretend he was invisible. or i'll just simply leave. of course he wouldn't notice this, because i'm just a nobody to him. but that's what i did, because seeing him, somehow there's this tingling feeling that i just couldn't avoid. Shy? i can't tell. because i was confuse.because like i said earlier, my brain was convincing my heart that my heart is just being stupid.

everytime our eyes met, i just make some this stupid face ignoring his presence. awkward? yes. but eventually time passes. i needed help, with my work. and that time was, when everybody just started to get really busy, and there's nobody could lend me a hand. a friend suggested to ask him if he could help, but i desperately said no. why? because i'm scared. of what? i just don't know, it's too complicated even for myself to understand. somehow my brain forced my mouth to say no.

but i really had not much time and desperately need help, so my feet and my mouth against my brain. i just went to see him, see if could help me with something. so that was the time when we actually talked, or more like discussing. alas, at that time i was already knew that his heart does not belongs to me, and so i hope my heart doesn't go wandering around carelessly too. so what do i do?


well, i'll just save the feeling for the right person to come. i will not mention it to anybody else, i shall stay,keep quiet. because this is my Jihad, fighting this nafs in the way of getting Allah's bless.
Yes, Jihad.
because when the right person comes, Allah's will open the blessed way for me insyaAllah.
for now, i can only pray hard.



I hope this thing will end soon. till the next post,
Adios, Muchachos!