Uncertainty

Bismillahirahmanirahim..

its a thing. i just knew it.it has to be it.

if a year is like a wave, then june would be the deepest, the lowest bottom part of the wave in my life. it must be a cycle, it has to be. then it will gradually gets better. but the problem is, other months before june selalu macam infected, cacamarba. macam wavelah kan, menurun grafnye. 

sama macam tahun lepas.

dan tahun sebelumnya..

last year was the worst. really the worst. i saw something that broke my heart. broke. my heart never the same as it was before.. broke. i cried. i can never walk near the place normally as it was before. everything changed. it was so heart broken, i cried everywhere- the studio, the toilet, my room...but i forgot all about it, so i thought its okay. 

i thought? nope. i completely forgot.

but after what i felt a few days back, it came to me. the memory crawls back to my mind. i know it has passed, i should probably get over it. i shouldn't give a damn bout it. it has passed. but its haunting me. 

and i hate when these kind of things happen to me. because i cant think straight.

i used to be very bright, but the glory has gone.

now i see none but uncertainty.

uncertainty..

i need to find my feet.and start get back on track.

if only i could do it faster..