IT's NEW Yaaaaahhhhhh!!!
December marks the end of 2012, January marks the start of 2012. I love new year because it marks the date of my birthday is close! and its getting closer and closer everyday. haha
The end is really the start of the new begining, isn't it? *sigh.
yeah. like for example, the end of our relationship marks the new start-alone of my life. relationship? sheesh. wasn't even close to that.
ive notice for quite sometimes that my act, is kind of like, Ted Mosby of How I met Your mother. yeay i keep it to myself first, thinking that i might overthink and getting perasan sorang-sorang. but now that amani point it out, well it just getting more convincing. Mr. Corrector, too much un-useful Fact-in-Head, Practice architecture, Sometimes did stupid things just to get off serious things (well, actually,most of the times, sadly), gooey romantic, in search of true love, chasing the wrong person, caring too much about friends and that. well, watching him you'll actually see me. sometimes i could be a terrible douche, but most of the time, im loving. too. much. loving. at a point that i might spray the sentence 'i love you' everywhere. welp! just kiddin.
which i dont like it.i want to be robin. she's cool. and the best part is she gets her love too. she's a hottie. well minus the hottie part i guess. im pretty just being me, but the whole other part? yeah i wanna be robin. brave and got guts.
and i want a relationship just like marshall and lily. which is too much even for a dream. my love life is crushed anyway. and its affecting my career. its all messed up. im screwed. for all i know, its all a mistake, ive prayed for the best, i guess i need to pray more, to keep stay strong. its been a rough year, very tough indeed, i mean its like i was being punched everywhere that im bleeding and there's no sign of getting better, and i just wanna get away.
i wanna be the old me. the one who doesn't really care bout love. boy am i getting dumber. :(
2013, be kind to me please, will you?
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