New approach

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

    I dunno why ive been serious about this issue lately. cant seem to drop it. like i'm really serious. i've been searching a candidate! hahahahhaha maybe i'm being pressured by my sisters and my brother getting married and all that next year.

    sedih sebenarnye jugak. i mean, i like this guy, even confessed to him that i liked him so much, do stuffs for him and all. it didnt ended so well, that i actually hurt. of course since we are close, i didnt leave him like that, turn out i made him my best friend. well, dont get me wrong now. he was the one who friendzoning me first. i'm following his lead, go with the flow. besides, he doesnt like me anyway, so?

    so i tell him most stuffs. like bestfriends do. remember how i told you that i confessed to him? yeah since he doesnt like me back, slowly i'm scraping the feeling off. how? well honestly, it's hard. VERY hard. especially when you're actually being friend to him, not just any friend, but close friends. i dont think im his bestfriend anyway, i dont think he ever felt that way. entahlah. but i have no one else, since my girl bestfriend is leaving me for her new boyfriend. i cant blame her for that. i just can be happy for her. okay honestly its sad because she priotise her bf more than me, i mean, he's not even her husband yet. but who am i to say? maybe she'll realize that later. but as for you guys, look, don't do that, unless you're married. seriously. jangan cakap aku tak reti bende2 ni, look, ive been there. and even my sister pun ade boyfriend, but she never left her friend.
still, i love her, she was there when i need her. though now not as much. i cant really say. anyway, that's why i turn to my another best friend, which is him, the guy who rejected me. okay he wasnt literally rejecting me, but he doesnt like me anyway.

    somehow i'm trying to approach this guy who i barely know. weird much. why am i even talk about this. hello~ life is not all about love lah gile. darn it. okay point nye ialah, i like this guy onced upon a time, but he doesnt like me, so im scraping that feeling, after few weeks, now im approaching a guy i barely knew. well, im trying actually.

haha

weird me.

dear strawberries, if only you'd say you like me back.. which apparently you wouldn't.