To be frank, i'm not a brave type of girl. i'm not the girl with high confidence level. i have a low self esteem. from speaking in public, to small simple things, i am a much afraid to do it. to the point at which i can't differentiate between shy and scared. I'm much afraid of the dark. I'm much scared of spooky things. I avoid talking about it, or watch anything related. because i tend to keep imagining.
demmit.
i was on my way from the studio, it was 4 in the morning. i dunno what happen to the lights- its gone, so i wanted to go downstairs with my friends. somehow a male friend of mine - chesz - happened to say "kau nak takut ape, pukul 4 ni takde pape lah malaikat dah turun."
bangang. meremang bulu rome.
chezs has no idea how scared i am for things like this. i scream watching stupid horror movies.. i couldn't imagine to see the real ones. i pretend to play cool at first. but the problem was, that was when the story went further.
innocent amani thought i was afraid of those bad people. sebab recently ada cerita bout flashers rapers lah ape. tapi aku naik motor, so takde lah takut sangat. yang takut tu kalau ade 'penumpang' tetibe. demm.
habis borak punye borak, aku berusehe nak tutup cerita. chester cakap....
"weh mirah, ko safiyyah kan? ko takkan tak pernah nampak kot?"
there i was, screaming. ba** punye chesz aku terbayang sampai balik bilik. aku terbayang moto yang aku naik sorang. aku doa janganla ape2 yang mengurai tu melintas. sampai aku nak gi toilet pun takut. aku kejut roomate soh teman die tak bangun. aku call amani, haa teman la ko cakap2 ngan aku sampai kat toilet.
babun, babun. sungguh babun.
aku tido dengan terbukak semue lampu yang ade, dengan henset aku main mp3. tidolah mirah. jangan terbayang.
sekali hambik. tido pat setengah, bangun kol 645. kelass jah! bangun awal. sempat subuh gihitew.
budus.
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