Random Rambling

Bismillahirahmanirahim..


Almost 1 in the morning and my eyes just couldn't shut.
funny how this never occurs when i was busying finishing my projects.
maybe because at that time i was so tired
that must be the only reason.
Now, i just couldn't sleep.
i guess something is bothering my heart.
somehow i could feel it trembles.

so here i am, rambling.
bear with me just for a few minutes please?
probably just another few seconds, depending on you reading pace.

i mentioned in my earlier post
i had open house coming, yes?
i'm happy that most of my friends made it..
and so was him.
the 'him' part does not made me happy.
he came.
he got guts, after what he did.
well life won't be a lot same as it was,
was it?

i mean, you can mend broken glasses
but you can always see the fracture.

i tried to be friends.
but his face reminds me
the scars he gave.

for i can't sleep tonight
i'm browsing Youtube
watching music video from the past..
spice girls, nsync, blue, hillary duff,
and other
reminiscing memories..

i've found my diary from 4 years ago.
read it.

school's stuffs, friendship, all that.
then when i worked as a part time worker at pizza hut
then the holiday part
then the start of my relationship
which, i regret all my life.

i laughed, i cried reading all that.
recalling what i had 4years ago.

Bad and Good memories,
are yours.
for it's you who felt it in the first place.

I don't think i can handle what's coming.
I just don't want to grow up.
I see no fun at all.




PS/: to the person whom may concern. i felt like wanting to rip your heart and read your mind. i want to know your plans. i want to know that special someone.
i want to know that lucky girl.