bout 2 years ago i broke up with a boy who i thought "The One". He was my first love. ever since then i never really like boys...
when i was younger, i always remind myself not to fall in love. because i must study hard to get me qualified to go to university. i dont agree with this whole boyfriend and girlfriend stuff, because most,yeah MOST of my friends did it wrongly, end up being stupid. i thought it's okay to fall in love during my so-called campus years.
i was wrong.
no, i shouldnt fall in love with anyone.
no, i should just keep study hard.
because i remember that time when we broke up, it took me more than 2months to get over him. Then we talk again as usual. yeah i thought i have overcome him. but then i got the news he has someone new, and that news sliced my heart, so it bleeds again. and that took me almost a year++ to recovery. yep, i was horrible. very,very horrible.
but to this day i manage to forget him, barely - no, i dont talk about him at all. i dont remember him at all. i forgot his birthday, but he dont forget mine, well, thats because my birthday is the same as his sweet-younger sister. i remove him from my contact list, so i wont ever contact him.
right now, he must have been doing well with the new girl.
i guess the reason he dumped me is because im fat. but what he doesnt know is that im tring to lose my weight for him. oh well, after all, our relationship hasnt been so long. well, i guess it was all just a mistake.
a boyfriend is the last thing i need right now,and when i do, i dont need a boyfriend. all i want is a husband. a husband who can nurture me.
but somehow that boy and i just cant be friends. it was me, i cant accept it. too bad tho, because we're friends since primary school. somehow its hard for me to decide.
do i still like him or im over it?
do i forgive him or i still mad about it?
dont get me wrong, nah ah, i dont think i like him anymore anyway,
but to that boy, for the sake of the past,
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