Failure

Among all of the words that i hate, one of them is Failure.

i hate failing, no one likes it yeah.

today i failed for the second time of my life, in getting the driving licence. i cried a lot, not while in the school area of course, but i cried a lot. at the bus stop, on the bus, in front of 7eleven,  crossing the road, walking to get taxi. i do not cry in the taxi. the driver was stupid pervert but i pretend to be cool.

get in the house, slamming myself on the bed, cry some more.

and next week i probably fail another two subject.

and to be honest, im too tired of seeing failure.

and honestly i felt like i'm actually fall into the deep black hole of doom, where loser people are.


i'm a loser.
i'm sick of being that.


but i see no sign or chance of changing.
perhaps maybe i'm blind too.