Imma Noob, thats why im here to LEARN.

          its very hard to see me,writing happy stuff nowadays. not even funny stuff, unless u count my sad-days are funny.  no,its not because of menstrual or things like that. tak ade kena mengena pun.

         i guess its a changing phase kot, from teens to twenties.. :/ whatever it is, please be gone by now,cuz i hate it. duck. how i wish i could do something to get rid of this phase.i hate it badly. i heard people do experience things like this, especially when they are forties.

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       but hey, this is life. reality of life,here in the world, on earth. u cant be happy 24/7 right?
       i lost a debate tonight which puts me the last rank which is duck i feel a humiliation damn i wanna cry cry cry cry. oh wait, i cried already. i know imma crybaby yeah u dont have to remind me. but the lost? it was terrible.  my dream to be a debater, damn, im gonna put that aside first. shit. i never gonna be a debater. ever.

sorry too much cursing. entah mulut tak boleh control,geram lebih,emotional tak stabil.

    but then a question came to my mind: am i the one who causing all these? ...soon, more questions popped out. is it my fault? am i a loser? do i deserve to be in this world? - well, world that i meant here is, umm this campus life, not world=earth or..umm u get the point rite?

   okay if any of u guys did ever think this way, well, look, people make mistakes. you have to trust yourself. if you condemning yourself, then you'll never get up! oh maaannnn im good at saying,but hard to apply it to myself =.=

    one of my cousins suruh recite ayat kursi / better,yassin.


*farah is currently nagging at me of being negative. haih amirah you're such a kid! grow uplaahhhh!!!


the problem is I dont want to. :/
DANG.


      maybe im living my life too hard. excessively hard. haih. penat mengeluh. penat menangis. sometimes i dunno what to do.i feel lost. haih haih. okey peeps make sure you guys dont be like me okeyh~ stay strong muah~ :)